Captain’s Log 5,238
Where have I been? I certainly haven’t been writing here. I’ve been writing grants, working on car shows, listening to my staff complainers carry on about insignificant problems, etc. I am tired. So very tired. I realize that this team of complainers has never said one positive thing about anyone or anyone’s efforts the whole time they have been working at the museum. Not one thing. The only time they want to talk is when they want to bitch.
So it’s time to use some of my Virtues Project Communication Training on them.
I got credentialed in this course back in about 1995. It’s not all about being holy, it’s a set of skills I learned to communicate POSITIVELY with people of all ages.
Next time this little posse comes into my office with their list of everything I do wrong, I am going to start the meeting like this. “So, BLAH-NAME-BLAH, before we begin, I want to hear one positive thing from you about everyone sitting in this room. It can be about them personally, about their work. Anything. And then on to the next person. I will begin.”
At least I am going to give it a shot.
It’s amazing how this kind of bullshit can wear you down. Some sort of deep sadness is driving them to behave the way they do, but I no longer have the energy or the desire to figure that out. I simply don’t give a fuck about why they can be such turds. I just want them to stop being turds. I want them to get out of their own precious snowflake selves and look at the good we do when we work together. But it might be too late. There are years and years of anger seething here. I can feel it. I can hear it when they talk. I did not install their anger buttons, but I certainly seem to push them effectively and consistently.
The upside of all of this is…..I am the boss and I get to decide who works at the museum. I terminated a senior staff member two months ago and I am not afraid to do it again. That termination came as a complete surprise to the posse. They knew I was angry but they didn’t know HOW angry I can get. Little fools.
This whole Trump thing has certainly taken the wind out of my sails too. I am trying to stay a good fighter. I am trying to thwart him as best I can. But I just don’t know. I have been having nightmares about him. Bad nightmares. This isn’t good either.
Trying to stay the course. Giving myself permission to fail.