Captain’s Log 5,175
Don’t you just love people who say they are going to do stuff and then they never do it? I call them the “wait-arounds.” If they wait long enough, somebody will make the miracle happen for them. Somebody will find for them what they seek.
Well here’s a little bit of advice about seeking. You have to do it yourself.
It’s all there if you are willing to use the tools.
I’m going to use myself as an example. I know I have done so many amazing things in my life. I know that. I have traveled, engaged in really interesting jobs, met amazing people, and had more adventures than I can even count. Guess what? I didn’t stick a sign in my front lawn and announce that I was ready to receive these things. I didn’t set up an Adirondack chair and wait for things to happen. I didn’t stand in the crowds during a parade and hope that somebody marching by would ask me to join.
Seeking doesn’t work that way. If you are a true seeker, you realize opportunity ALL the time. And once you realize it, you ACT to make it happen. You don’t sit around and hope for change. You try things you are afraid to do. Case in point for myself, I decided to direct a huge theatre production and I had never done any directing before. I took the job at the museum knowing it was full of land mines AND rewards. I knew I would step on land mines along the way. Shit. I step on one almost every week. But I still seek the excellence and excitement I know creative thinking can bring.
When I took the job with the training company years ago, I knew I would be traveling alone to different cities at least twice a month. I was scared but excited at the same time. Could I do it? Of course I could! You just DO it. After several journeys like that, I realized I was very comfortable traveling alone. I do it all the time now. I love it. Being able to travel alone makes seeking a lot easier. And in some cases, a lot more fun because it can remain uncomplicated.
I love the excuses seekers often give when they are unwilling or afraid to venture out and actually seek.
It isn’t the right time.
I am too tired.
I don’t like that place.
I tried that once and I was disappointed.
I need to be here for X, Y, or Z.
Nothing good ever happens to people like me.
Guess what? Nothing good every happens to “people like me” because people don’t allow it to happen. If you want to find the pony in the barn, you have to wade through some horse shit.
And it’s okay to be tired. I have been very VERY tired. I got tired yesterday when some people insisted I was foolish for not wanting assault weapons in the hands of civilians. I was belittled because I could not accurately define which killing machine qualified for the official distinction of “assault weapon.” I stated it was easier to buy a gun and have a cashier’s check issued (at least to me). I was then told that my bank did NOT require me to show my ID five times before they would issue me a cashier’s check a few years ago. Somehow, strangers knew more about my banking experience than I did. And there I was defending myself against this lunacy. I realized after about an hour into the “discussion” that this was not a healthy thing for me to do. This was defending myself against people I had never even met. I realized it was madness. It made me very tired, and as I edged toward anger, I knew it was time to quit. I posted one last comment announcing that I was quitting and would no longer tolerate any attacks against my moral code. Wow. There was dead silence except for one old woman who thought I should have bought a concealed weapon years ago. Madness. All of it. I let her have the last word because it was very obvious how much that meant to her ego.
There are times when it is okay to quit. In fact, quitting is often the most moral thing you can do for yourself.
You quit when you are truly tired. You quit when it’s dangerous for you to continue. You quit when you realize you are dealing with a Confederacy of Dunces. But you do NOT quit when you feel sorry for yourself.
You stop seeking, you stop finding. It’s a simple law of attraction. Even if it seems like luck, you have positioned yourself for it to happen. You don’t win the lottery unless you play.
Off to find another pony. Don’t worry. I always have extra boots in the car.