Captain’s Log 6,062
You gotta take care of yourself in this world. Nobody can do it for you.
Is it easy? No. Does it get easier with time? Yes. It’s like a muscle. Exercise it and it becomes familiar. Will it always work? It won’t seem to work all the time, but it does. Is there a cosmic lesson in every choice we make? Absolutely. Am I totally full of shit? Many say yes. Do I care? Nope. What you think of me is none of my business.
The opinion some people have of me and the cosmic truths I believe
I used to care. The days of being a people pleaser. If I was just smart enough. Or pretty enough. Or rich enough. Or worked hard enough. Or had more guitar skills. Or had a better sense of style. Or majored in something useful in college. Or was more patient and loving. More of this. More of that. And the beat goes on…….
There is no such thing as waiting for the right moment. The only moment you have is the one you are experiencing right now.
Maybe it’s age with me. Maybe I’m just tired. I used to really have an impact on people. I must admit that felt good to me to watch the light come on for my students or anyone else who chose to think I had something valuable to say. These days, I feel like I am talking to walls most of the time. So I have to get off my own damn dime and focus my energies into things that are more productive.
The Advice Store in now closed. I still believe what I believe, but I am choosing to keep my mouth shut when it comes to anything more. I am keeping it all to myself now. I am keeping me to myself. Selfish little Pollyanna Bitch that I am.
Which route to take? Sometimes, one seems great. Other times, they all seem wrong.
Unless someone asks, they will not get any of this part of me. And then, I will have zero expectations that anything I say really matters.
I still see the world through the strange eyes I was given. And that is okay. It sometimes connects me with people and it often isolates me. But I get to choose what I do with my strange eyes. And I choose to keep them open.
My world and welcome to it. Enter at your own risk.