Captain’s Log 5,838
The fires are all under control. They think most of them are the result of arson. The fires were driving distance apart, all started behind buildings away from view, and all on the same day. Very disturbing. They found one person dead in a homeless encampment. How sad. On so many levels. I don’t even know where to start. I cannot imagine someone doing this on purpose. I don’t understand evil.
Was it sick or evil? The older I get, the less likely I am to buy into the “sick” excuses anymore. I think some people are just evil. I don’t know what we do with evil people, but I think they are out there. Is it self-created or situational? Hard to say. The result is evil.
I have known evil people. I am dealing with an evil person right now, and it challenges me to the core. It’s challenging for me to feel safe and connected to my power. I struggle. This person knows exactly how to fuck with my sense of decency, and that’s where I find myself lost. Lost and tired of it all. It’s been more than five years now. At least 100 altercations. 100 too many.
I feel like the young Marine in the film Tribes. They did everything they could to break his spirit. And he held true to himself.
Jan Michael Vincent as the young Marine who will not conform
Time to pull up my hero pants and be even stronger than I know I can be.